Yea, I'm not really sure what I'm talking about in this post... let's just consider it a little rant.
I wonder sometimes where I am on the scale for personal growth....sometimes I feel like I'm behind a lot of people in some areas... like in understanding relationships, love, and the like. But, then sometimes I feel like I've grown more in other areas like with having responsibilities.
In all though I feel like I've started back at some point that I stepped off the emotional development train. Almost like I've gone back in time and started from that point again. Luckily, the train seems to be moving a little faster... but I feel kind of cheated for having missed all that I should have experienced like most people....But, then am I wrong for feeling that?.... I mean all people have shortcomings and no one is "like most people".... but thats not how it feels... I see most people (of my age) and they seem to have some sort of understanding of a lot of things in life... and I feel lost in a lot of them...I know it's probably exactly the opposite... but I'm not sure of that because, as I've stated in previous posts... most people aren't completely revealing of themselves. Though, I don't feel that I am that close to many people.... so I don't know that they should be to people they really dont know.
Life is complicated, hard, and always something new... I have a love hate relationship with it.
*Looney Tunes Theme* Th-Th-Th-That's all folks!
See ya next time!
Ryan
1 comment:
Ryan, I feel your pain. I'm glad to hear that you are grappling with these things at a much younger age than I did.
As for people seeming to have it all together... it's a lot of malarky. *NOBODY* has it all together. It's just a front that we all put up so others don't see our weakness and pain.
Hang in there. Stop worrying about "catching up" with everybody else. Focus on your own journey and growth. No one else anywhere is on exactly the same "life plan" as you, so comparing progress is futile!
Dad
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